Clarification

Don't get me wrong; I'm not giving up, and I'm not giving in. I'm not throwing my hands in the air and walking away.

I'm backing off because I have to. Because this is all too much right now. Because I recklessly ran over a boundary without concern for the results of my actions, and now I'm scared to move at all for fear of making it worse.

I'm not doing this because I want to be apart from you. I'm not trying to push you away. But I've hurt you. And as much as it's eating me up to be cut off from you, I did the cutting and until you say otherwise I've no right to be near you.

As much as I want to call you now, to apologize until I can't speak, to put everything I've got and everything I am into the plans we made, the next move is yours.

when will you do what you say you'll do
how could you really do it
why you keep on runnin
baby settle down
you're gonna lose your home
run on, run on
and you'll rule your den
crawlin black spider
got me crawlin when the grass was high
just keep crawling till the day i die
crawlin black spider
--CP